I want to share something important…
Can we have a cup of tea?
A few years back, I set out on a mission to turn the age old adage, “you must give in order to receive” upside down. I’ve been struggling with this very concept since the 1st time I heard a flight attendant say:
“Adults traveling with small children should apply their own oxygen mask 1st.”
I think I was 12…
It was a record scratch in my mind.
Wait. What? That’s not what I’ve been taught. All I seemed to know was straight up chaos… and the “everyone fend for yourselves” style of crisis response.
Emotional regulation was hard to come by. Everyone operating within their own trauma responses (creating and perpetuating even more generational trauma) of fight, flight, freeze or fawn (people pleasing) just trying to stay out of the way and survive the storm.
This need to run ourselves ragged…
To constantly be pouring from an empty cup…
To be circ du soleil-ing yourself into a pretzel for the sake of others…
All of it rooted in fear, lack, scarcity, judgment, competition.
Not enoughness.
I say ENOUGH!!!
ENOUGH. ENOUGH. ENOUGH.
There is so much more than enough.
YOU are so much more than enough.
And…
I understand fully, why you may have a hard time really believing that.
Like really… believing that…
Deep down to the core of who you are.
You are so much more than enough and you are worthy of your heart’s desires. I promise. And I know I can tell you that a million times, but you have to believe it 1st. It’s got to come from the inside out.
It’s hard to love ourselves.
And… once more… this is not what we’re taught. We are taught that we should seek the external. That we should search high and wide outside of ourselves for the answers that are already inside of us.
This makes it hard for us to trust ourselves.
We get frustrated because those answers, those masks, those diets/outfits/”lifestyles” that come from the external are often times not fully aligned. They may feel aligned in the moment and you may have found your way through the latest 6 Weeks to Your Skinny Jeans or whatever the formula was promising, but how did it feel?
How does it feel now?
Is it sustainable?
I don’t know about you, but my answers were often the following:
How did it feel?
Restrictive, counter intuitive and disempowering.
How does it feel now?
Hold on… I can’t button my skinny jeans.
Is it sustainable?
Usually not.
This back and forth banter makes it really hard to find compassion for ourselves.
Since I began my journey at the Institute of Integrated Nutrition, I’ve been working on a book called, “How I Stopped Being Fat Sick & Crazy and Became Happy Healthy & Whole” and for the longest time, I too believed that it was a formula. I believed that there were a series of protocols, recipes, lists of “eat this, don’t eat that” as well as movement & meditation practices that I could follow that would make me skinny enough, worthy enough, successful enough.
Enough is enough!
Because of the habit (trauma response) of seeking external validation to exist in the world, I believed that if I could become more of what I’m not, I would be more loveable.
This makes it really hard to truly accept yourself exactly as you are.
What if we just allowed more of the natural order of things?
What if we filled our own cups 1st, so that when we poured from them they were always full?
What if our energy centers were so aligned from the inside out that when we poured from that cup it could nourish in a way that creates ripples of healing?
What if indeed?
What I have learned about how to stop being “fat, sick & crazy” is to just stop seeing or judging myself as “fat sick & crazy.”
Sounds simple right? It is…
And…
It isn’t. Lol.
Remember what I said above about living with the natural order of things? What if I could just allow what is and not stay all twisted up about it? What if I could just open up even more?
What if I could just love myself?
One day, as we were driving to bring a batch of bone broth to a friend with a broken arm, I was being particularly hard on myself when my husband asked me:
“Can you look yourself in the mirror and say I love you?”
The tears began to fall.
“No.” I whispered.
He literally pulled the car over in Payson Park and said,
“Look at you… look at what you’re doing. Look at how you love and nourish people! How can you not find that same love for yourself?”
When he’s right, he’s right.
While I didn’t know it at the time, that was one of the moments… one of the portals that manifested me here… now…
full of self love…
trusting myself (and the Universe!) as well as listening to my intuition more than ever before… finding compassion for myself and my inner child in ways that allow me to breathe life and expansion into things I’d previously dismiss or count myself out of…
The Alchemy of Receiving
saying no to the illusion of control and perfectionism (because an “ism” is just like any other “ism”) and accepting myself, my life, whatever situation in each moment as the natural order of things in motion… that it’s all happening FOR me.
The Alchemy of Receiving
This is where the self trust comes in… when you learn and physically integrate what self trust feels like, you can sprinkle it on other areas too! It’s so cool! It’s energy and it’s all connected. Just like everything else in the Universe.
The Alchemy of Receiving
We’ve got to love ourselves to nourish ourselves…
and we’ve got to nourish ourselves to love ourselves!
So how we learn to love ourselves?
Through self trust, self compassion, self acceptance, self forgiveness, and by releasing lifetimes and lifetimes of shame, fear and doubt.
The Alchemy of Receiving
As a Health Coach, Business Bestie and Marketing Midwife, I hear women all the time say, “I just don’t have the time or the energy to take care of myself. The kids, the dogs, the business, the homestead, the social commitments, the community service…
All the things. It’s a lot. It’s three trips to the all you can eat buffet and you’re not chewing any of it (let alone digesting any of it) because you’re just trying to keep your head above water some days. I hear you. Believe me. I hear you. It IS a lot. And we need you and your bright light.
One of the things I love about The Alchemy of Receiving is how it helps me prioritize. Not only does the practice help create renewable energy, it helps me prioritize how to use that precious energy. It’s a foundation for determining what it going to cost in “Smurfberries” as I like to say. How can I fill my cup beforehand in order to have leftovers and what do I need to do afterwards to make sure my energy stores are replaced?
It’s a cook once, eat thrice kind of mentality.
It is our divine right and responsibility to receive and redistribute love, abundance & joy!
I’m committed to embodying this work more and more for myself and I’m loving sharing it with others! I led a small group through the practice over a 3 month period of time and it was really fun, but it showed me that this is so much bigger than I thought.
Halfway through the process back in June, I realized that there was a whole other component that needed to come through… the Light Suit! (Wait until you learn more. I have a guided meditation for it and everything! Click HERE for a little taste.)
Anyway, back to it being bigger than I thought…
It started out as a Mini-Course and has morphed into a 9 Month Experience!
Transformation doesn’t happen over night. True healing needs time and luxurious space.
I’m setting a virtual table for 9 women who would like to gather for a 9 Month Magical Retreat of sorts. I want to bring you into my inner most circle and teach you… inspire you to nourish yourself for life with the practices and way of being I call The Alchemy of Receiving.
I want it to have a women’s circle feel with some recipe club vibes and mastermind flavors. I want to talk about all things spirituality, quantum healing and frequency activation as well as sustainable, cyclical and seasonal living and eating.
This work feels like the last 20 years of my life’s “research”… all the trials and tribulations… and all the “fall down get up again” moments that have lead me here to share it with you so that we can all tap into what it feels like to live an abundant and magical life!
Are you ready? Join me for…
